I'm really troubled..
After having live in this world for 20 years, I still don't know what I what.
I have no aims nor goals, just an empty soul. The feeling of novelty comes in quickly, but soon wears out.
I don't want to make the wrong choice again.

Throughout these 5 years, there are many ups and downs. Mostly happy ones, I would say. But let's not forget the bitterness.
I don't feel that it has made me a stronger person. I don't know how to see if this person is true or not. I'm just blinded by whatever that I needed the most that instant.

To speak the truth, I need someone who cares about me, gives in to me and pampers me to the max. It doesn't have to be expensive or luxury stuff. I'm particular about all the nitty gritty details. To me, small little things matter the most. I don't see that I'm such a complicated person. I just a person who needs freedom when I need it, care and concern when the moment is right. I can't stand people who are too over-sensitive and will be affected by what I do or say. Instead of making me care about you, it'll be a turn off to me. Which girl doesn't like surprises? It doesn't have to be costly, like I said. Excuses are just what people make to cover their asses? Too tired? Sleep early. No cash? Save or earn some? No time? Find time.

People do grow as they've been through several relationships. You will change for someone if she know she's the one, you can't lose her and if she's your heart and soul. I did. But it was just infatuation. Luckily, the nightmare lasted for 4 months. We've seen each other's ugly side, lying scheming ones. There is a point where all truths are unfolded and there's no ore turning back right? I can see that you don't trust me anymore. Everyday, you will only be asking about my whereabouts and being over-sensitive about guys. Calling me cheap doesn't make my heart feel for you too. I think I'm just a slut and you're just a cocky horny bastard.

Trust is indeed very hard to build once destroyed.
Once a cheat always a cheat?
Why would you want to have sex with someone who didn't even care enough for you to not carry her germs back and implant them inside your body.

Am I the cause of our problems & that being with someone else is the answer?

Forgive but not forget. Especially if its twice hun.
Is it because I'm too used to yur company that I'm willing to overlook the fact that you're making a fool out of me?

Once? A mistake. Twice? A habit

Hi world!
Was extremely busy with work! even on my birthday and x'mas!
Bought the most dear present for myself ever!

Many hits and misses, gain and losses.
Money makes me secure and happy, but only for moments.
Nothing makes me happy seiously.
Maybe I'll continue with my life, with sadness and always yearning for more.
I'm not easily contented. Never be like me. hmms

I WANT TO GO ON A HOLIDAYYYY to escape from my hectic/stressful schedule.
CRUISE, JAPAN, USA, EUROPE.
Money do make the world go round.

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4 more months from second term to graduation.
License asap!!
Car(much consideration)!!
New Laptop!!
New bags!!

= still.. earn more money first.. .. ..

I wanna go korea.. maybe making my nose higher will change my luck in love sia.

No one can predict the future.
But what we can do is to live the moment.
Treasure what we have now, lest we regret in the future.

Will two people with many differences make an excellent couple?
Is complementing the differences as easy as it sounds?

Comparing men and women, why is it that women have to suffer so much?
We have to give birth la..cook, take care of family and the husband..
What about men? Only know how to complain about how stress they are, how much time they need.

Men like children ok. After giving birth, we become fat, wrinkly and ugly. Then they'll go look for other younger hotter girls.
The world is such a scary place. Iyo.

Me want chocolates to make myself happy.

I feel like going to some place far far away. No stress no nothing.
Singapore is just an island filled with disappointment and sorrow. There's nothing that is worth for me to stay.
I need distractions.
I want to drink myself to sleep. This sounds like an excellent night routine.

Feeling lost now. So many things to tell but who will really understand.

Day 0

Some things just happened. Some things that I thought I was lucky to not let it happen. It was the worst breakup. I thought I was strong enough, but it turned out that I was the weaker one. Turned out that nobody took me seriously, nobody really understands me. Just when I thought I found the one, things took a turn. You cheated and lied to me even when I looked into your eyes. It's all glassy and cold. No more cute little fishy that used to fill me with love. Gone were the brighter days.

I don't want to stay at home alone. I want to be out, with people to distract me, away from the nightmare. Nobody's gonna be home.

Imagine the world without me. Life would be so much better. I can end all the misery, sufferings.

I dont want to be alone.

Bye Bye America.. ..
Most probably going Australia, daddy is so excited in sending me there.

Me too.. .. I think..
Have to start saving as much as I can. Can't buy clothes anymore..
Cannot let beebee smell me anymore..

My Planned Graduation Trip!

2-3 more new tuition assignments coming up! Gonna be a superr duperr packed week from now on!

Celio is closing down all their shops by this year so I'm going to work at Nike. Yay to whole new working environment and comfortable uniforms!(I hope).

Not going to think about buying bags anymore! Am going to start to save for my virgin non-asia trip(excluding my South Africa trip), USAAAA!

LA for factory outlet trip.
Ahaniem for Disneyland
Neveda for Juicy Couture, Saks, Nordstrom, Kate Spade, Neiman marcus, Coach, OPI, Abercrombie, Wetseal, Aldo, Victoriaaa!

Shall aim for next year July? Just before my school starts and when everything is going ON SALE perhaps?
Beebee Fish! Please save enough money okay!

Went out with mummy and brought her shopping!
Aimed directly at La Senza! HUGE discounts, additional 10%+10% for members!


Bought some stuffs and am satisfied with my loots!


Feel like shopping moremoremore!!

Feel like getting this Fujitsu LifeBook MH330!




mine's like laggy.. but i used it for only a year..kind of wasted if I change into another one huh.

B bought me this really pretty miumiu wallet!
Rich turquoise color with soft leather and pretty gold zips!





Damn! Gonna sell my Kate Spade one now!

We're aren't happy together, so why hang on?
The times that we were happy is not enough to cover the times that we are fighting.
We should talk things out, no use hurting yourself and lying to yourself.

It's over this time.

Hello World,

I had just gone through some bad experiences yesterday. Real Bad.
And guys are nothing but just jerks, flirts and fuckers who think with their dick.

Second guy I've met who is like that. But STANLEY TEO WEI LOON is the worst.
Worst 18 yo boy I've ever met.
Guys are just major turn-offs to me.
Oh well, I'll just go find my lovergirl....... .........

You should be shot to death.
You should be alone, single and lonely for the rest of your life.
You should be miserable.
Bad luck should be bestown onto you.
No words can describe how much I hate you.