God! am I so difficult to tahan!
why is everyone telling me that!
maybe no one can stand me! everyone will leave and stop loving me already! :'( sobs.
Monday, June 29, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
youyouandonlyyou.
When did I say I'm not going to return your stuffs?
Did I say no?
In the first place, why did you OI me.
Can't you just ask me normally?
Just blame it on your manners la.
If you still want it, please tell me earlier.
I need to get it back from somewhere else.
and..
stop being so egoistic please.
I never expect anyone to be there for me.
Cause I know nobody's going to be there.
Yeahh.. you treat me nice but I never forget those unhappiness you brought me.
you are the one who refuse to hold me when i wear and act like an andro.
you are the one who replied me simply ohhhh when i confide in you.
only when i'm girly and sweet then you'll hold me close.
if you want someone girly sweet cute and short, go find those loserish girls.
you are the one who hit me cause you couldn't contain those pain I've caused you.
you are the one who never failed to walk away.
Did I say no?
In the first place, why did you OI me.
Can't you just ask me normally?
Just blame it on your manners la.
If you still want it, please tell me earlier.
I need to get it back from somewhere else.
and..
stop being so egoistic please.
I never expect anyone to be there for me.
Cause I know nobody's going to be there.
Yeahh.. you treat me nice but I never forget those unhappiness you brought me.
you are the one who refuse to hold me when i wear and act like an andro.
you are the one who replied me simply ohhhh when i confide in you.
only when i'm girly and sweet then you'll hold me close.
if you want someone girly sweet cute and short, go find those loserish girls.
you are the one who hit me cause you couldn't contain those pain I've caused you.
you are the one who never failed to walk away.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Why did I miss that stupiddd IT fair in June?
WHYWHYWHY?
Okayy, September and November,
I'm not giving you up!
Hopefully I can get back my money asap.
Cause I'll really appreciate that.
and. you ever thought of returning.
I'm really bored in school,
as you can tell..
from all my aimless blabberings.
I want to eat KFC breakfast!
Original chicken wrap with the honey scone!
yums!(=
WHYWHYWHY?
Okayy, September and November,
I'm not giving you up!
Hopefully I can get back my money asap.
Cause I'll really appreciate that.
and. you ever thought of returning.
I'm really bored in school,
as you can tell..
from all my aimless blabberings.
I want to eat KFC breakfast!
Original chicken wrap with the honey scone!
yums!(=
I'm supersuper in need of monaye mann!
My phone's dying soon. (hopefully blackberry, or something else =/)
I want to get my driving license next year Jan. ($2000 for unlimited failures =/)
My madmad bithday splurges. (maybe no celebrations =/)
My loans from mum. ($260 i guess =/)
HK Trip! (workworkwork & no spending till Aug26th!)
and not forgetting my wants:
- that K.S clutch.
- MP3
- headphones.
Well done Sinyi!
look at all the mess
My phone's dying soon. (hopefully blackberry, or something else =/)
I want to get my driving license next year Jan. ($2000 for unlimited failures =/)
My madmad bithday splurges. (maybe no celebrations =/)
My loans from mum. ($260 i guess =/)
HK Trip! (workworkwork & no spending till Aug26th!)
and not forgetting my wants:
- that K.S clutch.
- MP3
- headphones.
Well done Sinyi!
look at all the mess
Monday, June 22, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
My phone ki siao already lorrrr!
Never trust touch-screens!
Especially if you're bad tempered, violent and smashes the phone after quarrels and disputes!
My phone is in a pathetic sight.
The gold leather flap is now black.
The touch screen is not working, only for the call button.
I'm going to get blackberry soonnnn!
Never trust touch-screens!
Especially if you're bad tempered, violent and smashes the phone after quarrels and disputes!
My phone is in a pathetic sight.
The gold leather flap is now black.
The touch screen is not working, only for the call button.
I'm going to get blackberry soonnnn!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
1.45am
I look at myself in the mirror and see such a stupid retarded hideous face.
There goes my masks.
I think I such a failure.
Whenever things happen, problems faced whether in school, among friends, work, I'll turn to my gf.
That person is the most important person of my life, at that moment.
GF/partner, to me is the most important.
I can only open up to that person, that only one.
So whenever im asked, GF or friends,
my answer would definately be GF/partner.
Just remembered some lines from my favourite HK movie, wo de zui ai
why I threaten you to leave? cause I want you to say you want to stay.
why I restrict you from your friends? cause I'm afraid that you'll leave.
My favourite show! watch it and you'll understand.
maybe if you care, you should go buy it and watch it.
it's been out for some time so it's quite cheap.
I remembered watching with H and J in HK.
and i cried like a dog.
Missed the days in HK!
where the toliet lock is spoiled and we peeped at you bathe and you didn't know.
every single time i watched it huh.
This guy has been protecting this girl since very young.
just that this girl doesn't know.. and blahblah.
then dunno why he died, they didn't get together in the end.
Friends, they'll listen, but deep down they have other problems too.
People who really know me knows that I'm a person with a shell.
On the outside, I appear wild, flirty, player whatever.
But inside I'm just a normal regular girl.
Straight friends, close ones, prolly 10?
But they are always busybusybusy. School School School.
And they live sososo far away from my house.
Crook friends, many, but they were never friends.
I never had a chance to be friends with any girls.
Either we got together, we had something on or she likes me.
Like what I've said, when they want you, they'll give you everything.
When they don't, they'll dump you.
So many came and go.
For the past 4 years, countless of girls passed by.
M,A,A,A,M,J,J,Y,R,A,H,J,C,X,S,P and i don't know how many more.
All came and gone.
Those who are around me now are all lesbians, butches.
Even if they are not good friends, they are still the people I hang out with,
without them, I truely alone already.
Those who have loads of friends, good for you(=
At least when you have problems, you don't have to keep it inside you right?
I may appear unbothered and defensive on the outside, but inside, I'm different.
I just want to protect myself from being hurt again.
There's this invisible wall that I've built up over the years.
From what I've gotten. I just couldn't tear it down.
I just feel that I've no one to talk to.
You know you have gained my trust if I start talking to you about my problems.
So now, I think I should just keep it inside. Hide them deeper and deeper inside.
Marygrace caught me crying inside the store several times.
She complement me that I hid it well!(=
Cry already come out work again.
I shouldn't break down in front of anyone any more. Just store it inside deeper and deeper till it's mounted inside my heart.
During that 21 months when I'm with you,
it's just only me and you. Nobody else.
It was the sweetest thing I've ever felt.
There wasn't any time needed to be divided between friends and me.
Everything was mine.
And another you told me this.
you may think that it's dumb to choose gf over friends.
but think about it, would your friends do the same?
if they say yes, then make sure they won't get married and have their own family.
brotherhood appears very important huh.
but when they're attached, how much time did they give to you?
who was the one who took the initiative to meet up?
when you're sick will your friend take care of you?
the times that they have time to meet you, were they single or attached?
I never believe that friends and gf were equal.
Sacrifices have to made.
Im not some sick emo girl who want to slit her wrist or whatever lurhhh..
just that sometimes it's so unfair,
you'll take away the lives of people who don't love themself,
so tonight i'll try to hate myself so you'll take me away to stop my torment okayy.
Though i know it's hard to stop loving myself, but i'll try.
Mama, Papa, take care okies(=
i love YOU.
I look at myself in the mirror and see such a stupid retarded hideous face.
There goes my masks.
I think I such a failure.
Whenever things happen, problems faced whether in school, among friends, work, I'll turn to my gf.
That person is the most important person of my life, at that moment.
GF/partner, to me is the most important.
I can only open up to that person, that only one.
So whenever im asked, GF or friends,
my answer would definately be GF/partner.
Just remembered some lines from my favourite HK movie, wo de zui ai
why I threaten you to leave? cause I want you to say you want to stay.
why I restrict you from your friends? cause I'm afraid that you'll leave.
My favourite show! watch it and you'll understand.
maybe if you care, you should go buy it and watch it.
it's been out for some time so it's quite cheap.
I remembered watching with H and J in HK.
and i cried like a dog.
Missed the days in HK!
where the toliet lock is spoiled and we peeped at you bathe and you didn't know.
every single time i watched it huh.
This guy has been protecting this girl since very young.
just that this girl doesn't know.. and blahblah.
then dunno why he died, they didn't get together in the end.
Friends, they'll listen, but deep down they have other problems too.
People who really know me knows that I'm a person with a shell.
On the outside, I appear wild, flirty, player whatever.
But inside I'm just a normal regular girl.
Straight friends, close ones, prolly 10?
But they are always busybusybusy. School School School.
And they live sososo far away from my house.
Crook friends, many, but they were never friends.
I never had a chance to be friends with any girls.
Either we got together, we had something on or she likes me.
Like what I've said, when they want you, they'll give you everything.
When they don't, they'll dump you.
So many came and go.
For the past 4 years, countless of girls passed by.
M,A,A,A,M,J,J,Y,R,A,H,J,C,X,S,P and i don't know how many more.
All came and gone.
Those who are around me now are all lesbians, butches.
Even if they are not good friends, they are still the people I hang out with,
without them, I truely alone already.
Those who have loads of friends, good for you(=
At least when you have problems, you don't have to keep it inside you right?
I may appear unbothered and defensive on the outside, but inside, I'm different.
I just want to protect myself from being hurt again.
There's this invisible wall that I've built up over the years.
From what I've gotten. I just couldn't tear it down.
I just feel that I've no one to talk to.
You know you have gained my trust if I start talking to you about my problems.
So now, I think I should just keep it inside. Hide them deeper and deeper inside.
Marygrace caught me crying inside the store several times.
She complement me that I hid it well!(=
Cry already come out work again.
I shouldn't break down in front of anyone any more. Just store it inside deeper and deeper till it's mounted inside my heart.
During that 21 months when I'm with you,
it's just only me and you. Nobody else.
It was the sweetest thing I've ever felt.
There wasn't any time needed to be divided between friends and me.
Everything was mine.
And another you told me this.
you may think that it's dumb to choose gf over friends.
but think about it, would your friends do the same?
if they say yes, then make sure they won't get married and have their own family.
brotherhood appears very important huh.
but when they're attached, how much time did they give to you?
who was the one who took the initiative to meet up?
when you're sick will your friend take care of you?
the times that they have time to meet you, were they single or attached?
I never believe that friends and gf were equal.
Sacrifices have to made.
Im not some sick emo girl who want to slit her wrist or whatever lurhhh..
just that sometimes it's so unfair,
you'll take away the lives of people who don't love themself,
so tonight i'll try to hate myself so you'll take me away to stop my torment okayy.
Though i know it's hard to stop loving myself, but i'll try.
Mama, Papa, take care okies(=
i love YOU.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Wo yao
BLACKBERRY CURVE 8900 (600)
CANON IXUS100 IS (500)
Sighs.
feel like quitting my job, yet so many wants.
My KateSpade fishy bracelet (150) and wallet (200+) will have to wait even longer)=
Plus my Straw clutch (340) and Marc Jacobs Lemonn Spritz (100) and Anna Sui Live your dreams (60) or I Loewe you (60) andandand my ALDO sandals (50)!( if they still have my size
Total: $2100.
Hmmms.. time for expenses plan revise.
BLACKBERRY CURVE 8900 (600)
CANON IXUS100 IS (500)
Sighs.
feel like quitting my job, yet so many wants.
My KateSpade fishy bracelet (150) and wallet (200+) will have to wait even longer)=
Plus my Straw clutch (340) and Marc Jacobs Lemonn Spritz (100) and Anna Sui Live your dreams (60) or I Loewe you (60) andandand my ALDO sandals (50)!( if they still have my size
Total: $2100.
Hmmms.. time for expenses plan revise.
Friday, June 12, 2009
YOU MAKE MY MORNING!
25% off the total price of my current favourite bag?!
Lady Luck's shining on meee!
I LOVE YOU ANGMOR SPREE PEOPLE!
You're too irresistable for me not to get you.
You're mine in 2 weeks time(=
Lady Luck's shining on meee!
I LOVE YOU ANGMOR SPREE PEOPLE!
You're too irresistable for me not to get you.
You're mine in 2 weeks time(=
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Closer..
When I shouldn't appear at work, i did.
When I should appear at work, i don't.
wasn't scheduled for work today, yet turned up at O.C.
so worked from 1330 to 1830.
was packing store when Ian came in and told me that I received flowers.
totally stunned that instant.
I've never receive flowers, as in a bouquet of flowers, Roses.
Champagne roses in greens and wild flowers.
It's really pretty and totally different from what you see outside.
Even thought there wasn't any messages or name, I know who's the one who sent me..
Nice surprise though.. when you're bored at work.
Evening: dinner at home(=
Night: dbl0-ed.
wasn't a bad place as I thought it would be.
but music was pretty bad though.
was buying drinks when this guy came tapping me repeatedly, what's up here and there.
blabbering about whatever fuck. touching my waist and arms.
then later on, someone whizzed pass me and stuck a pen at my dress strap.
funny huhh. dunno what these people thinking.
luckily i wasn't alone(=
i always liked the idea of clubbing with your partner?
it's all about having fun together mahh..
not taking the oppurtunity to know girls and stuffs.
anyway, just heck care and danced since i was already feeling high at that moment.
had shots and something else..
it's 442 in the morning and i can't sleep..
mmyml.
When I should appear at work, i don't.
wasn't scheduled for work today, yet turned up at O.C.
so worked from 1330 to 1830.
was packing store when Ian came in and told me that I received flowers.
totally stunned that instant.
I've never receive flowers, as in a bouquet of flowers, Roses.
Champagne roses in greens and wild flowers.
It's really pretty and totally different from what you see outside.
Even thought there wasn't any messages or name, I know who's the one who sent me..
Nice surprise though.. when you're bored at work.
Evening: dinner at home(=
Night: dbl0-ed.
wasn't a bad place as I thought it would be.
but music was pretty bad though.
was buying drinks when this guy came tapping me repeatedly, what's up here and there.
blabbering about whatever fuck. touching my waist and arms.
then later on, someone whizzed pass me and stuck a pen at my dress strap.
funny huhh. dunno what these people thinking.
luckily i wasn't alone(=
i always liked the idea of clubbing with your partner?
it's all about having fun together mahh..
not taking the oppurtunity to know girls and stuffs.
anyway, just heck care and danced since i was already feeling high at that moment.
had shots and something else..
it's 442 in the morning and i can't sleep..
mmyml.
Monday, June 1, 2009
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