Lying on my bed, feeling nauseous, headache and a little hungry.

I hate myself. I felt bad.
But what did you did?
Im not expecting you to make me feel better but you didn't even bother to call back.
I just want to lie sleep and not wake up.. Im really tired..

Why should I.. It keeps on ringing repeatly in my head over and over again.
I don't want to cont this dream alone..
I don't want to be only one wanting this dream to happen..
If not, It'll be a nightmare.

If I have 1 hour to live, I hope that it'll be like last time, sweeter then ever..
But I hope that I won't live to daylight so there won't be tmr..
So that I dunno what's tmr pain..

Blankness*
The thought of losing everything suddenly, frightens me.
I can see it coming.
It's so close I can feel the fear in me.

Eyes widen in shock. Beads of perspiration rolling down.
For 17 years, it's finally happening.

LOVE is about feelings and not words,
it has to be felt and not said.

LOVE is blind,
you may not have any reasons why,
but you know you just love her.

LOVE is about giving it all,
it's not a have to,
but want to.

Love is about being there selflessly,
you don't have to care about what people think,
no matter what obsticles are there between them,
you'll still go against all odds.

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TODAY.

my dad's ignoring me for the 5th day already..
cause i went to buy expensive air tickets..
and say got cheap one dunwan to get..
then say i always go out so late..
hmmms..

feels so weird, cause we are like quite close..
now it's like.. just so weird..

Now Im learning to change for the better..
I know my bad points..
Maybe it's too late..
Things cant go back to normal le..

From Classmates to Friends and now the feelings are back to classmates?
Old frens.. they busy with their own stuffs..
Girlfriend.. even busier..
New found friends.. busy with her girl..

Even if the sun refused to shine
Even if we lived in different time
Even if the ocean left the sea
There would still be you and me
Even if the world would disappear
Even if the clouds would shed no tears
Even if tonight was just a dreamThere would still be you and me

In the cold of winter's chill
I'll be there to warm your heart
Giving you all of me
For all time
No matter what

OMG. I THINK IM GROWING.

This feels like a journey in life that I've yet to walk through.
Maybe I am now?

This has taught me many things. I should stop all my childish thinking.
Seriously, I should think from the general view and should stop being so obstinate.

I make no sense. bye.

Thought we can like hang out after school tmr..
Stay overnight at my place or something..
Then talk past midnight, go drink or something..

I never had this feeling of closeness towards friends..
I thought we could all last or something..
But when a person gets older, the things they see gets wider..
They'll get to meet different types of people.
Feel so protected and safe when in secondary school..
every1 seems so real and nice..
Fishbally, KC,Val, Collin

except for one, who told every1 im lesbian to all the guys..

Poly was a tad lil difficult for me..
Semester1 wasn't a pleasant experience until the 13th week..
Semester2 was fine.. had Jieqin and meiting and people..

I thought Year2 was the best, but seems like, it floating further and further away.
After being in my own comfort nest for so many years, I get to see the bad side of people, how scary they can be. At least I wont believe in people so easily.. I guess..